Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Biggest Loser

I blame it all on my husband.

Before we got married, I was happy with my weight. Never the skinniest girl, but always comfortable in my own skin. I have a short, athletic build, so I've always weighed more than I look like I do and I'm ok with that because I'm muscular.

But it's official: I'm fat.

I have gained 20 pounds. And I can't even begin to tell you how that is for me to admit. Every day is a struggle to figure out what to wear because everything is too tight. J has gained a little weight too, so we've both tried to get out and excercise more and watch what we eat....but nothing is happening. So last week I decided to take some drastic measures before I have to get in to a bikini in Cabo....I went on the South Beach Diet. I did it once before to help my mom lose weight and lost 12 lbs. so figured even if I lost 5 before the beach, it would help. So how much have I lost? NOTHING. And my fear is that it's only going to get worse now that I'm going to be busier than I've ever been in my entire life (which is only adding to my stress and causing me to get fattter!)

So there it is...in black and white. And that's my vent for the day. Amen.

1 comment:

Suburban prep said...

I feel your pain. In almost 10 yrs of marriage I have gained a good amount of weight. I am tall (5'9 1/2"), so I am lucky that it really doesn't show. I was quite active (I danced for close to 20 yrs). Less than a yr after I got married I developed DVT and well I had to learn how to walk and do other things again. It is chronic but I have gotten back to doing a number of activities.
I wish you all the best.